Clueless In This Mess

Father,

For only you satisfy,

My every need I won't deny,

So why is it so hard for me to comply?

The more I seek my life, the more I die.

The More I die, the More I feel Alive.

Is it comfort or contentment?

Father, give me proper discernment.

Of what it is I'm truly craving?

Give me a reason why I was worth saving?

If I'm so inclined to Misbehaving.

For as I seek to fill the Void,

I feel more empty and lose your Voice.

For as I seek to feed the Appetite,

I just starve more & lose my Sight.

For there's no greater attack upon myself,

Than fighting to defend myself.

No greater place of vulnerability,

Than Protecting to Preserve Myself.

The more I win, the more I lose.

The more I lose, the more I win.

The more I live, the more I die,

The more I die, the more You Live.

The More of Me, The Less of You.

The Less of Me, The More of You.

The More of you, the better for us 2

Father, still I have no Clue,

And as life goes by,

I'm more aware I don't know what to do,

I'm helpless without you,

Clueless in this Mess